Trouble in Paradise

Well this week has been crazy full of many wonderful, exciting, and horrible things. This past week I had to make a very difficult decision to make. I love how I have gotten a job and I am able to work and not be bored around me house, I love how I am able to actually make money instead of not having any, and I love the people I have met. But since starting this job I have realized and am now starting to understand money and financing. I need to save up to buy a car, but yet I need to pay for online classes this summer to get more credits. It just seems like life and money are a big circle that cannot be maintained.

This past week I had to make a huge important decision, I had to chose whether or not to go to summer staff this summer. There are many many pros and cons to going, but in the end I decided that the best option for me right now is to pass the spot and stay here. Since my reasonings that helped me chose this decision are wayyy too long I will not bore you with them.

But on the plus side because of all these decisions I have leaned and needed to trust God so much more than in the past. It seems like every year another bigger than before decision comes up, that is placed in my life and I believe it to be a test from God to see how I handle things like if I end up asking for help and trusting him or trying to do everything on my own. Some times I fail at this (which is normal since I am human and I do sin) but other times I pass with flying colors! As I get older and realize these situations are good for me and when I realize that if I trust God everything will go over smoothly and without ease than if I do it on my own. So thanks God for testing me, it grows me closer to You!

Another plus is that this summer is I want to be transformed physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I want to be a different , better, and healthier person! I will be like a butterfly, go in as a caterpiller and come out as a beautiful butterfly.