Oh the Places you Go!

I remember in the 8th grade the last day of classes, my homeroom teacher Mrs. Taylor who I absolutely adored read the book by Dr. Suess, "Oh the places you will go". I never thought about how much that this book and it's meaning would effect me. Back then, it was easy, just go to my local high school. From there they told me which classes to take and how to apply to college. Well when it came time for me to apply for college's I did not think or even want to think about where to go and what I even want to do in life. So I just applied to the local colleges in the state. I of course got in and accepted to all. It was just a matter of where I wanted to go. I chose U of A, because when I visited I feel in love with the campus. I do not know exactly why I did not chose NAU or ASU for that matter, I just claim that everyone chose to go to those, but I guess now that I look back I wanted to get away and kinda do the rebellious choice.

This past weekend, when I went back home yet again for the 200 millionth time, my mom and I had a great conversation. She informed me that she noticed that I am not myself that this past year I have not been happy. She claimed that I do not know my true self, that I just go along and please other before myself. So this got me thinking... who am I? What do I want to do? Where do I want to go? Who do I want to become? All these questions floated in my head, and still are... I have no idea who I truly am. Yes I am Aubrey a 19 year old girl but who am I really, what truly makes ME happy?

Since being back from home, these questions are all I can think about, am I just going here and doing these things because it is safe and expected of me? Who are my true friends? and Where do I belong? and even... Do I need college right now? Some of these questions are the extreme yes I know but they are needed to know and be asked?

Many options have popped into my head, like GCU (which I applied and got admitted) also ASU, the military, and now a college in Colorado. I like U of A, but walking around and being here I think Do I really belong? See back at home, my grandma is going through some health problems, in which there might be a major change in my family to where we end up. So that is another reason to add to the list. I just need to find out who I am, and what I truly like before making any decision.

Also, I feel that coming back to U of A is not the best for me since nothing is falling into place... for example, 1. I apply for the number 24 most sexually active dorms in the US, in which I canceled because of this reason, 2. I did not get into the Young Life house, 3. I have no where to live next year ..yet if I do return, 4. Are the clubs and activities that I am involved in really for me and describe me, 5. I do not feel excepted or wanted here 6. I have many friends but how many of them are true and trustworthy 7. low GPA. and finally 8. They will not let me register for my classes.

All these things are hard to get over and think of what to do when all these things are against me. Right now I feel I need to just get away from everything and even possibly school, even though I would need a job. But first before anything I must find myself.

Oh the Places you'll go!

I remember back in 8th grade, my teacher read to us on the last day of school the book, Oh the places you'll go" by Dr. Suess. I never really realized back then how insightful and how true that book really was. Over the past couple months have thought and looked back at what life has given me and where i have been led. I remember sitting in that classroom anticipating high school, then as years pass sitting on the football field thinking about college as I am about to walk across the stage to graduate. This past year i especially have been thinking about what life has offered and where and what i am supposed to do. I feel that since attending U of A that it was the best but worse choice for me. It was the best because I needed to get away and face life and grow up faster and learn exactly who i am... but on the other hand it has been worse because i feel i have no one any friends in either in Tucson or in Goodyear. This has been a huge struggle for me, but i need to learn to be on my own and not need people. I have had many up's and down's this semester alone about where to go in life and what to do. There has been many struggles and options for me to chose, so hopefully i chose the right ones. Some situations are mainly where to live, what to do, where to go to school, Younglife, and interest group. All these things travel in my head all at the same time and i think of the options that are open and needed for me to succeed and stay true to myself. Life hands you many throwbacks and settings that are needed. And I know that this is a huge one that life is throwing me now!

Polyvore

I am addicted to this site... polyvore and i wish that i could own every single one of the things it has on its website! It is amazing and soo many cool stuff to chose from! This is the first of many (i bet) of things that i will create

A Whole New World

These past couple months have been filled with great adventures, family time, and lots and lots of ideas and plans of what to do with my life! This past semester I hit up Tanita and asked to go through Younglife training ... because I noticed I missed it and being apart of it and the people! Along with going through training I applied to live in the Younglife house next year... and have not heard back yet... so hopefully I can get in!!! If not that is totally cool and I know God wants me to live and be somewhere else... but still it feels soo nice to be back in Younglife! Also I was thinking about other things like school and other activities that i am involved in... but in the end God told me to stay at U of A and for my other activities I am still debating but I know that by next year I will have a fer sure plan and idea!

I am soo excited that school is almost over... then Oakbridge for the whole summer! so excited to see and reunite with some old friends and make some new ones!!!
hahah this picture is amazing i just love it and cant help but smile everytime i see it ! i love it and it brightens my day lol
and Christina since you are like the only one who ever reads my blogs... i bet you have noticed why i started over and deleted all of my posts. It is because I feel that I just needed too! lol and i love that you are the one who reads them and i thank you for it hahaha